Yeah, I suggest to not read this if you don’t know me personally.
So recently there’s been a lot of shit going down left right and centre and to be quite honest, I’ve shown it to no one but it’s put me down a hell of a lot. I’ve felt so alone because as much as I love my friends, when things like this happen, they shut down. The easy option is the best with them, to avoid anymore arguments. Now, don’t get me wrong, drama that can be prevented is good but by avoiding what’s happening, I’m not sure.
To be quite honest, I feel awful. But as always I’ll laugh along with everyone and enjoy myself but I’m always trying to avoid certain individuals not because I’m scared, because I know there is only one person that will genuinely stick up for me but she isn’t always in my lessons/around. It’s me against another group.
On another note, the boyfriend of the girl causing all this shit has been my friend for a few years now and I don’t know whether he has a part in this or not. Yes she’s lied about things to do with me but then she seems convinced he is uncomfortable around me and has had a part in her opinions. The sad thing is, he ranted to me about not knowing what to believe when maybe he’s been playing his part too. What do I believe?
However, all this aside. I enjoy being around my school friends, even if their methods, to me, are a little off. I love them all. But the big reason I don’t fall to pieces is my big sister. *roll on the cheese*. Honestly, I don’t know what I’d do without her. We’ve cried together when one of us has been upset and without fail, we can always enjoy each others company. What I have with my sister is something irreplaceable. I’m aware she’s getting older and eventually, she’s going to leave home and I’m going to miss her, so so much. But I’m sure we will always be this close. Of course, my boyfriend does nothing but make me smile. He winds me up but always has a way of keeping me happy. He’s tried his best to give my confidence a boost and make me feel great. Both him and my sister mean the world to me but my sister has the edge because she’s been around a lot longer than him as I’m sure she always will be.
Anyways, I’m both extremely happy and very down. But with the dream of my future, my achievements I’ve got and will receive in the future, my amazing family, a loving boyfriend and a strong head and heart, I’m not going to let a few school girls drag me down to a darker place because if I’m alone, so be it. Those who reject or ignore aren’t worth my time.
Friends, family. I love you all.
I WILL NEVER LEAVE and I’ll always be here to insult anyone who makes you feel like shit and always here to give you hugs and talk at you about anime and how I think the Suzaku body pillow should be on my Christmas list
You’re actually the best sibling ever.
i don’t ONLY care about myself. i care about like 5 other people. and animals.